Море Внутри - Никак - текст песни, слова, перевод, видео

I don't dream about suicide My wrists are clean and there are no marks of suffocation on my neck The whiskey doesn't know about waiting until the shot And I really believe that someday it will be better I don't enjoy the new day I don't make plans for tomorrow, because I know what it is waste of time It's been a month since I don't love you at all And I really believe that someday it will be better, probably All my attempts to start all over again Have not been successful, just like you and me, in principle I am not capable of telling the truth, but I also do not know how to deceive Head full of thoughts about how to stay awake My phone hasn’t rung for several days I’ve locked myself in the room and I don’t want to open it to anyone My heart was broken, and I again broke all the dishes Out of pure motives for happiness, and collapsed on the bed I’m searching for words, to finally confess to my mother that my whole life is entirely built on lies, that I abandoned my studies again and am becoming a drug addict, and that sometimes I don’t want to live at all, I’m tired of scolding my reflection in the mirror, who do you look like, and that I’m ashamed of myself I can’t raise my hand to hit myself I simply don’t have the strength to hit someone else My friends are laughing at me again, They say that my depression is too ostentatious They constantly threaten to stop communicating with me But, to be honest, this will make me feel bad only better After all, I haven’t needed anyone at all for a long time Although I cry because I have no one to hug Again I have to press strangers for pity But they don’t pay any attention to me And I even began to fall in love with my autism And I’m thinking about to hang a cross on my neck After all, it’s unlikely that there will still be time for anyone to be found here Who could accept me for who I am Addiction to alcoholism, excessive shyness Denial of understanding, and a constantly sad look At school behind my back they called me crazy After all, I was always absolutely I’m happy for everyone But today I despise and hate everyone I feel superfluous in any environment I have no neighbors, no neighbors at all I just forgot how to ask someone for forgiveness I don’t like this life at all, but I don’t want to die Fate has managed to take its toll, although and I’ll say that the burden is light. I’m not cool, not fun, not sad, not bad. I don’t feel bad at all. There's just no way