тема креста - что исус имел в виду - текст песни, слова, перевод, видео

I lived and didn’t wonder why, why and who

I asked my mother the name of the planet we live on

earth - my mother answered, such a banal word

I’m nervous, I ask again, was it really impossible to come up with something new for the planet?

we get on the bus, we go to church, today I will be baptized

the priest will cut off my hair and pour water on me

came home, the law of God lies on the table in a terrible binding

such a dirty book that you should wash your hands after, not before, otherwise your skin will get damaged

They hung a cross around my neck and told me never to take it off

They also talked about some prayers, I didn’t understand anything

I look at a man crucified

save and preserve engraved on the back

everything smells of unpleasant carrion

or, on the contrary, something too feigned

Grandfather died, I guess he didn’t wear a cross, I thought

or maybe my memory just failed me, I didn’t remember the difficult prayers

next memory a year has passed

I’m sitting with my grandmother, my mother screams from the context, I understand that God

this is bad, covered in lies, I stand there, I take off the cross, I put it in my pocket

the next morning in kindergarten, in hysterics, I tell my cellmates about the deception

a little later it turned out that God is good, it was the grandmother who joined the sectarians

but just in case, I decide not to believe in anyone for now so as not to suddenly upset my mother

in second grade I catch the first flashes of fear

I pray to the picture with Mary the Virgin

I feel cleansed, but not for long

another grandfather decides to die

in the fifth grade I deceived my mother, and somehow she found out

The great-grandmother leaving the guests at the door said softly:

“Because you don’t wear a cross, demons live inside you.

Look at my sectarian daughter, don’t become an enemy of the family!”

in upset feelings, I went to look for him, he’s small

save and save I put it on my neck and in a year I’ll drown it in the sink

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in 11th grade I'm going crazy with fear of death

I ask my mother to help me - she forbids me to think about it

I look at my classmates - everyone seems to be in a coffin

I don’t understand the world order, why now only exams are of paramount importance

why will my body decompose like a hard cold load in the ground

like lying in a coffin, I stopped being able to sleep on my back

I read the Bible Jesus suffers love and create says good

according to his behest, I breathe and try to get rid of fear, everything should be simple, easy

I go to church, I faint from the smell of incense, there is no salvation, old women with tumors are suffering on their knees, I run to the zoo, rather to touch a living thing, I hit myself in the face where it hurts, in the church I forgot to say, I accidentally knocked down a stand with books with my hip, a grandmother in a scarf with candles called me the devil, I look at the sky, the earth is cramped, I call an ambulance, they are helpless, I am in a hurry to call my mother, time zones, she is in another city, mom, why did you give birth to me, contemplate the beautiful nature, full of evil,

I take two sleeping pills under my tongue, I go to the doctor in the morning, the doctor advises me to have sex more often, this is probably what Jesus had in mind.