Анна Раскошная - Если бы ты знал... Эльчин Сафарли - текст песни, слова, перевод, видео

I have not seen you for a long time. ... I learned to turn away when tears treacherously give out longing and hide their hands in the pockets of the jacket, when they clench into fists from hopelessness. I cheerfully answer calls, communicate with people and at times dance when the music is funny ... everything seems to be not bad, but all this ... game. ... Now I'm a good actress. One role.

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I ask you about two or three common friends with whom I maintain a rare connection. They say that everything is fine with you, you have cut your hair briefly ... I listen to, I am angry, I scold myself for not stopping asking about you, but on the face of a mask of indifference. "I'm glad. I'm glad that he is doing well. And I also have ... good. " The last word on major notes. Smile. Curtain. The role is played ... I am lying. I hate myself for this lie. Forced. It must be strong to become happy. I want to love again, somehow differently and not so much. I want to get used to life without you. I want to ... continue to love you. Let it be unrequited. I know I'm a fool. But my love for you makes me better, richer, although it proceeds with tears in my eyes. Or maybe I still hope ???

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I meet new men. Rather, I just watch them, not letting them close. Some of them invite coffee - and I go. To look at them and once again make sure that you are better. You were the best for me. I do not idealize, I did not interfere, on the contrary, I think soberly, abstracting from memories. Some of them are more beautiful, one of them is smarter and much more self-confident. But none of them have such eyes and hands that you had. There was a sea in your eyes, which since childhood I love the most. ...

I write, it takes me. Perhaps from the side these lines look like the suffering of a snotty girl. Spit. I am proud of what was, although there were not so many. This pride, psychologists say, "the first step towards healing." I accept what was, I easily let go of it without struggling with memories. Yes, maybe this is healing. I have not realized until the end. But I know one thing for sure: I miss you.

Take care.